Monday, February 27, 2012 / 7:03 pm
Moody
It's a moody day. For no reasons, I felt really bad, like dirt shit. My boss told me is hormones things and we went for a walk. The walk is ok. But I am still moody. Maybe I am stressed with the work. Knowing I have loads of undone work. Why am I procrastinating?
Irritated feeling. Yes this morning like every morning, the train jammed! This evening like every evening the train jam again. I am v sick of these! Like many people in Singapore. The moment you hear "dong dong" "dear passenger, this train will be delayed due to a train fault" or whatsoever lame reasons. You know it. You goanna be late for something.
Really F this thing and TMD, 我很不开心！
The mrt ride made me sad. My leg pain, heavy bag. There's sth bothering me, I just don't know what.
Okay just the downs of my life maybe! Instead of 明天会更好，I am making it 等一下会更好！
I am still in the train! Finished ranting! Back to my show :)
Labels: Bruise on my hand
/ 12:07 am
my blog has a new reader(s)
Yeah, recently my blog has new readers 1) bubbly thoo 2) 'fan jian' friend.
it's kinda cool because I market my super ''AWESOME'' blog to THEM. to think i have the cheek to do it!
anyway updates about today! i shall start with what I DO then proceed to what I NV DO
woke up! 11AM, snooze till 11.50! FINALLY up, preparing to go Claudia house by 12.30pm.
Reached claudia place, avril (claudia's niece) still eating, so i go to her room, told her i only had milo and nv eat. AND THIS SWEET FRIEND wants to make cup noodle for me but I had bread in the end. hehe, so nice right :D
Guess what she had in her room! she's fixing a 1000 pcs puzzle and it's WINNIE THE POOH AND FRIENDS! BECAUSE of the CONTRAST of colors!! EEYORE IS OUT FIRST!! HOHOHOHOHOHOH. this is exciting. and off we go for jalangkai!
TOOK a cab down. ok the PRC drives so -_-", whatever and he assume he knows the way. NVM. reach the place, feel with WARMTH. met twinkie (dog -beagle). went toilet, as usual claudia and i share a toilet.
then samantha arrives :). i did a 神圣 thing. THAT IS * DRUM ROLL*, she ask me to cut 40 strings! HAHAH and she said it's a 神圣 thing! then the YMD arrive, nv felt his presence, didn even kno he behind us.
then we start to do the things below. :D
Yeah, it was a fun jalangkai of the year 2012, where we all have our renewed (everchanging) resolution. they returned us what we set last year (HEHE, i didnt go last year, so i dun have it) and ask us to set new resolution for this year. I set alot. hope by next year, i can share my resolve :).
I always love after jalangkai where they have alot of FOOD! yes i am so hungry. i stand beside the table and whacked the sushi, stand there and eat. because i was so anxious to eat the first mouth, i accidently put too much wasabi! OMG, MY NOSE!!!!!! WOOH, for few seconds i stay still, nobody noticed anything. hahahaha. anyway. who cares. i stil continue to have 10 sushi! YUMMY. zui kuey, carrot cake. green bean soup and YUMMY CHEESE CAKE, the cheese cake is always SO GOOD. so so we head HOME.
Claudia and Alan went to exercise, while i go home intending to do work!! but i fall asleep for 1hour. SHIOK to have the room to myself for that hour. i nv like sharing. but no choice i have to share my room!
THEN i head to her house for DINNER. eat eat eat. hahaha. chicken, coke float, salad! OH GOOD FOOD :).
after dinner we went to fix puzzle! impatient me, a while, i give up. hehe. then i start to play snoppy and i got all excited over IT. HAHA. ok then i go for another coke float! my stomach cant take it i guess!! anyway i head HOME, again with the intn to do work. but but i on the com and here i am with shows on, facebook, blogging. well! and i felt my tummy expanded today!
I FINISHED "he's beautiful'', currently watching dream high 2, marry me- marry & sign. hehe. LOVE KOREAN DRAMA LOVE KOREAN BAND, SONGS. simply love everything about them :)
well i did it, with entries of pictures :D
NOW COME TO NV DO!
1) nv do morning gongkyo
2) NV SHIT (i can do it everyday in office but just cant at home, my mom say this is LAZY people attitude)
3) Nv do work
Sunday, February 26, 2012 / 1:21 am
motvation for blogging
credit to yue ming, i feel motivated to blog an entry after reading her blog. My blog wont be so interesting like hers! but i will try! i think uploading picture is so ma fan!
and goodness, i read my past entries. EVERY ENTRIES complains abt my WORK. horrible! blog is a tool to express ur true feeling! I MUST BE DAMN UPSET AT WORK! YES I MUST BE.
not that i m not now! I AM STILL COMPLAINING! hahahahah. anyway maybe colors HELPS, i try to use Different colors for this!
so what am i doing now? i brought back laptop from OFFICE to work over this weekend! OMG, i hate working yet i have to do this! THIS IS WAY TOO LAME
this entry was stopped because I need to go home continue with a new entry!
Sunday, December 11, 2011 / 1:49 am
Ugly - 2NE1
[CL] Balkge useobojiman
Nae mame deulji anha
Nan yeppeuji anha areumdapji anha
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
[BOM] Norael bulleobojiman
Amudo deutji anha
Nan yeppeuji anha areumdapji anha
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
[DARA] Nan wae ireohke motnan geolkka
Eoddeokhamyeon nado neocheoreom hwanhage
Useobol su isseolkka
[MINJI] Ddo hwagana wae neul wanbyeokhaji mothae
I ggaejin geoul sok motnan moseubeul hyanghae
Tathagiman hae
[BOM] Chyeodabojima jigeum I neuggimi shilheonan
Eodironga sumgoman shipeo
Beoseo nago shipeo
I sesangeun geojitmal
[CL] I think I'm ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don't lie to my face tellin'
me I'm pretty
I think I'm ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don't lie to my face cuz I know
I'm ugly
[MINJI] Nal shwipge ihaehandago hajima
Mot saenggigo bbiddoleojin nae maeumi neol
Wonmanghaljido molla
[BOM] Mal shikijima nan neowa eoulliji mothae
Geu jalnan nunbit sok chagawoon gashiki nal
Summakhige hae
[MINJI] Dagaojima neoui gwanshimjocha shilheo nan
Eodironga ddeonago shipeo sori chigo
Shipeo
I sesangeun geojitmal
[CL] I think I'm ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don't lie to my face tellin'
me I'm pretty
I think I'm ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don't lie to my face cuz I know
I'm ugly
[DARA] All alone
I'm all alone x 2
Ddaddeuthamiran eopseo
Gyeoten amudo eopseo
All alone I'm all alone x 2
I'm always all alone
Ddaddeuthamiran eopseo
Gyeoten geu nugudo nal anajul saram eopseo
[CL] I think I'm ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don't lie to my face tellin'
me I'm pretty
I think I'm ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don't lie to my face cuz I know
I'm ugly
[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2
[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2
[DARA] Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?
[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror
[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly
[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you
[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me
[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly
[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2
There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side
All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone
There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly
Wednesday, November 23, 2011 / 1:40 am
sick of whatever i am doing
as my title suggested, i am sick of whatever i am doing. something that i shouldnt even step into?
Saturday, November 05, 2011 / 5:03 pm
forgo one for another
i dont really dislike work but rather i dislike the people at work! really this one i have yet to overcome. change company doesnt solve this problem cos these will always follow us.
but why the bad people seems like they are always not getting their karmas! for the bad things that they do?
recently, into the koran F4 show. OMG! you can see me drooling over them! hahahaha i want such romantic stories to happen to me also. to be love by the richest guy in korea. is like i can die tomorrow for that. hahaha
yes indeed a v materialistic person! but why bother to say you don't love money? you dont yearn for good boy, good job, high status, respected by people. good friends. who don't want? good health also. why not? if i can have all of it. why not? hahaha i want to be pretty too!
going for chingay trainings soon, i felt kinda bored over this thing! haha some how! not that looking forward. the steps are not easy, nvm. i dun really feel i m so interested in my last chance to participate in chingay. haha and i was the one who wanted to join in the first place.
the part on nv be contented, earthly desire is true. goanna rebond my hair cos i can't stand it but trainings need to tie hair, goanna find a rubber band that is good.
woo, i hope my eye nose ear mouth, skin and every part of my body is ok, as i aged, these problems keeps surfacing. or is it that i didn bother last time? i don;t know.
wooh wooh i want to wear my dress to club and put on the glitter eye that i purchased months ago! wooh wooh.. who's getting married?
hahaha
duper random post.
ciao!a
Monday, October 24, 2011 / 10:58 pm
karmas
as a practitioner of soka gakkai buddhism, karma this term appears fairly lots and everytime anything that happen to us, we see it as karmas. karmas of the past, karma of previous life or even karmas from other people.
like we are born and brought up in this family because we share the common karma.
we met this type of people who treat us this way because we treat people in appropiately thus we have our karma. so whatever i did wrong, i get it back.
how about what others did to us? why they don't get their karmas? for telling tales for getting others into troubles for stabbing others? their karmas are that they are miserable people. but what i see, they are leading fine and healthy. they are happy whenever they meet their objective or whenever someone get stabbed due to it. usually they are capable people. so why they need to do that to others.
come to think of it, this post fyi is goanna be random. i have overflowing of thoughts.
miserable people they are, because i m not strong enough, i fall into this misery together with this miserable people. i think is not fair. if i m not nice to my mother, then make my mother not nice to me, why it comes back that others are not nice to me. i find it not fair totally. i dun tell tales about others that got others into serious trouble. but i m always the target of gossips. bad people bad people, bad people.
i hate work seriously, they made me mad, crazy or whatever. like the only reason for hanging on is my good boss. thanks goodness i have her. but why they likes to do things and make things difficult for others. this is political world. but why can't everyone be nice?
seriously, i may not be the nicest person, i am a selfish and jealous girl. maybe i know. jealously kills me seriously. but i dun harm people, i gossip yes i do but my gossip wont get people into deep trouble or deep shit.
i think i offer help pretty often if you needed. i really will help. but when it comes to me needing that help. how many people actually helped you?
it's like you are having sex, you helped each other takes off clothes. but when u finished it, you put back your own clothes.
well the logic behind this is, people only do things for their own good for their own liking, after it's done, there's no reason to help further. finished making use or whatever words you can describe.
damn, i just hate it that i need to go back to work, but if i don't i will get stabbed. what's wrong with this world. this is not what i wanted
i wanted nice bosses, colleagues, good job. but it's so hard.
in work place, everyone seems to not be the nice girl anymore. they try to stab and etc.
i dun understand what's this society is all about. but why do this happens? why can't everyone work in harmony? it creates cohesiveness and improves worklife happiness.
simple thing, nobody wants to fight it. seriously, i dun get it..
ranting, does it helps? i wonder.....
Thursday, October 13, 2011 / 8:31 am
Irritation
Need somewhere to rant! I am so irritated every morning! My attitude for not waking up! Damn!! And the train is always so slow! Damn it! 不爽！but seriously we paid money to get this type of service, is really TMD slow! Fuck it!
Monday, October 10, 2011 / 11:07 pm
Bad mood
Damn! Sometimes I just hate myself for being who I am! I am stupid! Damn!
Sunday, October 09, 2011 / 6:59 pm
Feast at ikea
Apart from my lighting sneezing spree, I enjoy myself. But stupid sneeze seriously!
